2:00 AM, Wednesday, May 18, 2005Well... Roaster is out...
I can sense the "kiasu-ness" in cabin crews whenever we approach the day when out new roaster is being released. *LoL* not forgetting I m one of the kind of coz... Everytime when I was logging in to chk my new roaster, my mind would somehow undergo the same kind of feelings tat I went thr during the poly days when exams results r due to b released .. erm... or even sth lik balloting for the IS modules for the next coming semseter. Sounds as if my fate gonna b determined by the others...My heart froze as I glued my eyes onto the computer screen, heart beating faster.... etc...Walau.. every mth lik tat .. would greatly increases my chances of getting heart attack early siaz.. *Choi*I was awakened by a sickening fone call at 8 am in the morning !!! OMG !!! Mayb to the others, 8 am is the time to b awake for work soon enuff ... or even shld I say .. erm... somebody r already on their way to work already... Tink my slping habits r long spolit by the working lifestyle I m having.. slp as much as possible & eat as much as possible & most importantly, SHOP as much as possible.. haha... If let's say the day were to come tat I m to settle down on grd for some fixed 9-5pm job , I tink I m gonna haf a god-damn hard time to adjust sia... the 2-month attachment period during my poly days was the best example . I was sent to Frontline IT Co. as a HR admin assistant. Whenever I rch the office, the 1st thing was to go toilet to chk on myself , say hello to the toilet auntie, switch on my comp, stared & dazed for 5 mins, clicking the comp pretending to b busy but actualli I was juz typing emails to frens ... Next, looking forward to lunch hour, eat & "entertain" the collegues abit by trying to join in their conversations ... the big prob is out age gap I guess... so our point of views r far enuff to let mi tink " oh well.. let's juz shut up & finish the lunch faster" . Lastly, the knock-off time at 6 pm is the best thing tat ever happened at the end of the day. Office politics r unavoidable so I juz try to steer clear of dem.
Toda I acc Dar to Tan Tock Seng for his asthma check-up. The waiting is long sia... fr 10 am then 12 plus finally it ended.. Decided to catch a movie at PS .. The Amityville Horror .. The movie is said to b based on a true story... ERm... it was an okay movie to mi... juz sth abt some guy being possessed and killed some children by shooting dem, hse haunted, sold to next owner, their kids kena disturbed , blah.. blah....blah... Catch it when u haf time ,k? No rush...
Ok. To the most important part of todae's entry.
I haf received my letter of acceptance fr SIM for their 35th intake Full-time Bac of Biz in Biz Adminstation.
If this would happened 1 yr ago, I would b feeling relieved and juz take another part-time job while continuing to embark myself on the new phase of life to pursue my degree.
But thinking aback, this might not haf happened aso coz I certainly felt tat I haf I haf used enuff my of my parents' hard-earned $$$ on this education thingy ever since I came in to this world. I would feel tat I m forever deeply indebted if I continue...
Things took another twist as I joined SQ after I came out of poly. SQ has never crossed my mind , I swear sia.. Life is juz full of unexpected turns & twists. I went to the interview wif a fren and got in. It juz went on until now...
However, although I feel tat I shld b able to financially support myself to pay for the degree while I work now, the opportunity doens't come knocking twice.
This is wat I read fr the SIM's letter :
Please note that the full-time program requires your full-time attention as timer is required for attendence at lectures, library research, group assignment meetings, assignment writing .....blah.. blah.. blah...
It is for these reasons that you are strongly advised not to seek full-time employment during the period of your studies.
No full time job?? Equals no $$$ ? How? To me, tink this is gonna b another case of helpless problem.
So m I deemed to haf given up on this?
Actualli Dar dun encourage mi to go ahead wif this degree thingy. First of all, is the man's ego thing I guess.. Not much man ( I din say ALL ) would b able to accept his gf to b more highly educated than him. Neither is the the guy tat would strongly oppose to my decision-making.
Okie.. I m suddenly at loss of words to continue.. Mayb is I m at loss in my thoughts ...
I shall watch HBO on Chn 60 at 2.45 Am later . Nightmare on Ele Street . Old show. I used lurve it .
